What I felt When This All Started in March and April

 

I wanted to reach out to everyone in the middle of this unusual time in which we are thrust.

This event, is a piece of history, and how we cope 

will test our discipline and character.

When this started, like many of you I swamped myself with coronavirus all day all the time, spent on Facebook, and Netflix or television, overeating and under exercising! It was not very productive and ultimately debilitating, and depressing.  All the things I thought I would get done I didn't. After wading thru that bad energy, I finally pulled myself up, and slowly, painfully began to paint. I applaud anyone who was able to get creative sooner, you are obviously of high energy and character. I am too sensitive to outside stimulation, and it caused me some great internal anxiety.  I am telling you this, because many of you are probably experiencing something similar.

This event has become a great disruption to the entire fabric of our lives.  Our habits and pleasures are completely upended.

I did learn however that there is a silver lining to this. I learned that the gift of time here is a blessing, a way to get to know our true selves. It has forced me to redevelop the lost art of introspection and meditation. It also taught me that I make a lot of excuses about time that simply aren't true, that fear and laziness are strong forces. It also made me appreciate the quiet power of time spent in my studio, the pleasure of slowly creating something new and of my self. Breaking from digital media, painting is much more rewarding. It pays dividends over and over for years to come, where much of the digital media we fill time with, is temporal stimulation, is easily forgotten and less satisfying, leading to poor self esteem due to time wasted.

I realized this space suit we call a body, needs care, attention, and has enemies, one a virus, but two our own self destructive natures. Our higher self can be reached through the various arts, which is inherently essential, though lately, not deemed officially so. Try getting through this without the arts! You soon find out how essential they are!!

I realized one day that there is a connection to this virus and art. It requires us to pay attention to detail. To see something unseen, or to see what is actually there, not just what we want to see or thought we saw. We have to make a connection to cause and effect, where we put our hands, and the consequences of those actions. Our connections to society at large has shown us how really connected we are. Like a virus, our ideas, good or bad, can spread, and take hold, influence or infect others. How we think or adhere to higher principles of truth and reality become extraordinarily relevant in this time. I have said to friends, my religion is the "Art of Appreciation". It is through really appreciating the many blessings all around us, a flower, a painting, a friend, light on a tree, a child, a parent, by not taking things for granted, we truly touch spirituality.

I am overcoming the effects of this virus, and have succeeded in mutating it into art, a series of efforts to regain my inner strength. I wish you similar luck with this challenge.